just a blink, and it’s christmas today – a lonely christmas
wishing everyone, him and his family a merry christmas.
thoughts have been wondering in my minds for quite sometimes, to let go or not to let go.
knowing it’s wrong to start yet we did it. and yes, we’ve been even closer till it’s hard for us to let go now.
i knew i shouldnt be a home-wrecked in the first place.
i should’ve thought of his status, his family, his kids and wife. i mean his legal wife
the days we had together is a fruitful memorable for me, the stuffs he gave, the promises he kept and everything that make me wouldnt want to leave him even more.
knowing what is right or wrong now, i’ve become a muddle-head.
i force myself to sleep everynight, i force myself not to miss you but i failed.
i need to do a self-reflection, but its seems to be contradiction.
the ever first birthday that i really enjoy myself, the ever first candle-light dinner i had, thanks for the memories dear. yes at times, we fought over jealously
the pressure i had, the insult i’ve overheard, i endure its because i love you.
i learnt to control my emotion, i changed because of you.. to be more reasonable and understanding.
you are the person that i doesnt wish to upset or hurt, because im afraid to lose you.
there’s always a ending in every games, and i guessed it times to be game-over
i wouldnt want you to betray your family because of me, seriously im already contented to have you for the past 7mths. i’m already satisfied.
if you still remember there’s once i ever say this to you,
if there’s next life between us, i want to be your wife and be with you offically.
