bad dreams gone. sweet dreams appear.
to make it simple; it’s called ‘blessed in disguise’
got to know HIM through my so-called ex.
though we didn’t really communicated, somehow i fall him.
we only met a’bout 4times, i guessed.
i think that is called ‘love at first sight’
talking about my ex. it’s a long stories. i swear.
or somehow maybe i shouldn’t start in the first place?
there’s goods and bads.
good things is.. i got to know ‘HIM’
bad things is.. i shouldn’t start in a relationship with my ex.
i would say, there’s isn’t any love involved in our 2month relationship?
blame myself for giving my ex too much false hope.
in our relationship, there’s isn’t any peace.
misunderstanding, fights, doubts and some stuffs.
HIM
a malaysian guy. and i really do love him.
don’t ask me, i do not know the answer.
though i told myself before not to fall for any malaysian guy,
somehow, it’s unpredictable when the times come.
He tends to be cold at times, and tends to be sweet at times.
he gave me a special feeling which i never felt before from all other guys.
maybe that’s the reason i’m willing to sacrifield everything to him, with no regrets.
maybe on our first time on what we done or maybe we shouldn’t done at all.
high-influence of medication, i think so.
i did declare to him after the night that i likes him.
he got shocked and trying to keep a distance from me.
numbers of pestering on him through messages and calls from me,
he still didn’t give in.
we managed to talk out after sometimes.
he says he wouldn’t want to get into relationship now,
as he’s facing lots of problems.
our ‘relationship’ wise, wasn’t that good.
though we contacted, somehow we’re feeling uneasy and awkward.
everything seem to be quite well, after some times.
though, there’s on and off feeling.
got to know david from HIM.
he was quite a nice guy though,
we met up very frequent at night for chats.
i could confide all my problems and stuffs to him.
There’s once, we went for k-box session together with david and hid girlf.
he knew i’m wasn’t feeling happy and somehow feeling uneasy,
somehow he tagged along when both david and i went out to smoke.
he telling me stuffs and asking me what song would i wanted to listen,
and he’ll sing for me.
somehow he sang a song for me, and do ask me to listen carefully.
which is ‘终身美丽’
(whom no guys really sang song for me before)
times really passes fast, it had been almost 3week.
we went straight home after our entertainment,
and no reasons.. i ended up at his place.
we did something and seem to be wasn’t approaciate.
i could sense the feeling that i had on the day.
he ask me a very silly question though,
whether do i like him?
i wouldn’t want to reply him though,
and asked him the same question as he does.
he didn’t reply yet showing, ‘a little’ through hand signal.
i do appreciate.
eventually, our relationship seem to be good.
we met up almost everynight,
even though for just awhile.
Indeed, i’ve been smitten by him.
our first date out is to the movie. ‘IronMan’
after movie, both of us had a good time chatting.
being stupid of me, and ask him that question 2nd time.
his answer was yes and still i ask why?
his reply was, ‘爱情是麻木的’
for the second time(being sober this time),
he hold my hand when we were crossing the road at Geylang,
we were actually on the way meeting david and his girlf.
because i had some misunderstanding between them.
due to the fault of HIM.
he knew i’ve been contacting david all the times,
and of cause, i was fcuking pissed when i asked…
‘Did you tell david gf?’
he was smart, and say No eventually..
without knowing, i had found out the truth.
soon, i let it be for some times.
we did something again for the 2nd times.
we held on each other tightly.
somethings happened few days back.
which i accidentally, let the slip the out of my mouth.
that caused him to ignore me.
depression and emotional break-down.
did many things, to feel the pain yet painless.
i neglect my management exam and stuffs.
went over to his place to look for him,
stayed there overnight yet he ignore me.
after few days, we managed to talk though.
i knew on the other hand, he’s not on good mood.
i.. will not.. question much,
do not want to give him any pressure.
i’m hoping that he’ll take things steps by steps,
and hoping that everything will be solved.
i love HIM!
